Demon Hunter revisted

It’s pretty dark here. Huh? Where are we going?…I’m leading the way…

Who’s with me?

On the right? She’s kinda short…Name?…Where did I meet her?…In a carpeted cabin?…

Oh the feed is up. Right! Right! that picture…it’s from facebook… Tiffany Wong?…weird. Ok the car passed but I didn’t see anything but the headlights. I’m dreaming.

Crossing the road. Not many cars in this world at this time of the night.

Red table? plastic chairs. Oh open air asian cafe/eat out spot/hangout spot.

Where’s the food? I’m hungry. Oh she’s drumming her fingers on the table. Impatient women. Sigh terrible to date.

She’s got a pretty face let’s take another look we’ve got such liberties in a dream anyway.

…Glass window? Where am I?

HUH?

Dark…Linen tablecloth with lace trim. There’s tea. She’s still here…

She starts talking. A waiter passes by. Oh I’m in England.

“what do you think of…..?”

“what’s next?”

“are you infuriated?”

“such is the way the world we craft and live in is.”

Strange normally my dreams are quiet. No one else really talks. Why is it suddenly so sedentary? So calm. Yet the discussion here is quite high level. It’s all Analyst talk. She’s asking a load of questions. High level stuff from the deep dossiers. Secrets of societies. Why is it all here?

Have I been drugged?

Green ward…Still green. No I’m at home. I’m asleep in my own bed…

What’s my mental activity levels? Red ward?

Waking?

I’m working as if I’m awake but…She’s still here. Who is she? She can’t be Tiffany. I’ve only met her once.

She’s smiling. Oh man this is creepy. I can’t see her face? It’s just shadow now…

The tea is steaming though. Maybe my mind is this active cause it’s filling in details?

She speaks again…

“So you’re back finally huh?. Awake? Oh you know you’re dreaming now even.”

She’s just smiling and nodding…It’s not safe here. Something is wrong.

Gotta wake up.

I’m stuck?

She’s leaning in close. Lips to my ear?

“I’m just here to say. I’ll be coming to Leeds to visit and see how you’re getting on.”

“I’ll welcome you then. You are always free to visit me whenever.”

“I will be coming. Definitely.”

Eh? I’m awake now…I forgot to turn off the lights before I went to sleep again.

“Give a demon a pathway and it’ll walk right in.”

Shit.

It’s found a way into Leeds.

Can’t have power without using power eh? Fine. Never really expected much rest on the job anyway but so soon. I’m ready for the challenge.

Hope is

Waking on a couch at someone else’s place feeling cold and tired but knowing there’s a prayer being said for me.

Thanks.

Friendship/love/being touched is

Knowing how little I tell you, but understanding you think about me enough to know more and find out more without pressuring.

Faith is

Slinging on the bag, putting on the shoes and walking out to where…I don’t know…But I know the Big Boss is calling me.

Determination is

In our litanies.

Woaaaaaaahhhhh AWwwwwwww

Courtesy of the baby panda!

It’s got 2 prongs

The left prong is more forward than the other I’m not sure why. I’m just pointing it at the skype screen hoping to use it. But I can’t maintain it.

Maybe I need to wait till I can get into physical range I guess.

More wait.

More wait.

Argh

I’m tired and close to tears. Ready to give up after all these years.

But yet I get the feeling.

That I’ll be at it again tomorrow.

Disappointment

Is it in you?

Or in me?

I guess in both of us. I thought you’d cross the line that would divide you from the rest.

I actually thought you did. But then again you didn’t have the will to stay.

What made me think to consider this? Probably desperation, maybe loneliness some might say.

Nothing has changed nonetheless. I need to stay off my throne for awhile just to get used to things.

It’s a tired game.

I’m tired of it.

But yet I can’t quit it yet. Addictive game that I’m not quite bored of yet.

I find the clarity in the calm of your inaction.

I find the disappointment in my misjudgement.

Why did I try to settle for less? Or why did I see you for more?

I’m not at a time and place where I need a partner yet anyway.

So I’ll hang in there and just relax.

Cause when it’s time to hire.

I know someone will be there with all the little itty bitty powers to spar with me one on one evenly.

But for now…I’m going to put on the shroud and move away for awhile.

I’m off to Tarbean.